People often ask if I am afraid for my future Peace Corps service. I think I would be crazy to not be afraid. So here is a list of all the unreasonable and reasonable fears in no particular order.
1. Getting raped
2. Getting more sick than just a cold
3. Seeing a child die
4. Being outside of my comfortable worship style
5. Dealing with the absence of people that understand me
6. Returning to feel that I've missed out on the people I love
7. Not being able to stick it out full term
8. Coming back and feeling even more alienated from my peers
9. Being inadequate according to my job description
10. Bitterness rising in the hearts of my friends and family while Im gone
11. Meeting the other Peace Corps volunteers
12. Being unable to solve a problem
13. Losing my mind
14. Offending an elder in my community
15. Losing the ability to safely walk around outside at night
16. My religion being confused with my nationality
Most of all Im afraid of not trying. So even though some of these fears may become realities, living with a "what if" is the ultimate fear.
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